Miles from where you are, i lay down on the cold ground, and pray that something picks me up

and sets me down in your warm arms.

Im home. In oceanside. It doesnt feel like home, its rainy cold and depressing. I spent all night laying on my driveway in the rain. I miss you.

Happy 1st birthday Jaxson Malosi Flores!

Jaxson turned 1 today!! We had a BBQ for his birthday on saturday and everyone was there.  I spend Friday, Saturday, and Sunday at the Flores' house and it was alot better than i expected. i thought i was going to be sad like last time but i wasnt. i love that family so much i think im just gonna quit school move in there andbe happy! haha just kidding. but anyways i got an email from my baby today so that brightened up my day. i just got home teaching with the missionaries. aah its always the best feeling. i love it.

Rollercoaster Emotions

I am tired of having rollercoster emotions and i want them to stop! im tired!!

Regret

Have you ever felt like anyone has ever regretted you? Like they were forced into having something to do with you? Yeah well its so not the best feeling ever so i urge everyone to not put themselves into situations that they may regret in the future.  Sometimes i wish i could drop everything in my life and run away here to green pastures where no one is and no one cares. For approximately 696 days or until i dont feel regretted anymore, which ever comes first. You know what? I think i will.

I like

when people care.
and don't hate, just love.
i need that. the end.

Hibernation

Hibernation is a state of inactivity and metabolic depression.
This will be me until i figure out my life because i dont want to be judged, hated, or be percieved as someone that im not. When im feeling like myself again, ill come around again. Untill then....Katy

What A Week!!

This week has been pretty great :) Today me and Sydney, Tela, Sarah, and Sarah went and played tennis and it was really fun! We also went to the Northridge/Santa Clarita boys football game today and we lost by one point! Ugh! But it was all in fun so we had a great time.  Tonight is the All Decades Dance so we hope that its gonna be alot of fun! 2 more days until i get an email yay :)

And ive been reconsidering alot of different aspects in my life right now and to tell the truth, im uttely confused in what im doing and i think alot of change isin order.

Katy

FHE at the Visitor's Center

Wow! Such a fun night we had!! We went to the visitor's center for FHE tonight and we had a great time...and we had Diddy Reise after which i didnt like that much but oh well haha. This past weekend with the Flores' was great and today was good too! I got an email from my baby so my day even started out great.  I saw Sister Winn at the Visitor's center...i was so happy to see her and she was happy to see me!! Were totally sisters! i hope i can go visit her again soon. So far September has been awesomeeee ah i love it. :)

i loved this weekend!

Well now i know how to put up pics thanks to my friend Tela! But anyways i've been having a great past 2 weeks and i owe it all to my church friends! This weekend  i went to Jordans house and it was a really good time.  We got to hear Apostle Elder Tom Perry speak twice and it was so amazing.  Without Jordan's family i dont think i could do this at all. The gospel of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has forever happily changed my life.  I feel so complete. I went and did baptisms last Thursday at YSA night and that was an awesome experience! I look forward to many more to come!

OMGOOOSSSSHH

TODAY WAS SO AMAZING. OH MY GOSH.
i got 4 letters, pictures, and  A TAPE RECORDING OF HIS VOICE! it made me the happiest girl in the world. i got to hear his voice 2 days in a row! i am so excited to send him the voice tape of me back! i love that man more than anything else!

BEST DAY EVER

i got two phone calls today!!! even though they were short, i was so excited to hear his voice it immediately made me cry.  i am just so happy he is safe and happy, it made me feel so much better. he has a cold though, :( which i wish i could fix but i cant. oh well. i miss him so much its so unbearable sometimes. i hope his flight from Michigan to Virginia goes well.

Labor Day

I had a really great labor day! who woulda thunk? ahah. a group from my ward went and did baptisms at the SD temple and i had a really spirtual time, so many confusions cleared up. i love the temple.  then we went to an FHE bbq at Leigh's house and that was pretty fun, but stressful too.  today i got my email from my love and i swear he knows exactly what to say every single time. i think september is gonna be an awesome month!

;P :) :/ :(

just when i think everything is going to be ok, it isnt. great

What a day

wake up.
go get xray.
come home.
fall asleep.
make brownies.
write the love of my life back :)
drop in mailbox.

a so so day. happy that i got a letter from my bubs :)

Daisies.

Today was okay :)
I got the sweetest card from my bubbu wishing me to get well soon. Well i get another x ray tommorrow so we shall see.

I went to institute and walked home with Sydney Bea Tierny and Kayla so that was pretty fun. And my roommates said that they have the same eng teacher that Jordan had last year and she brought him up in class for getting published in new voices :) YAY!

Katy

Waiting Wishing Wondering

SOOOO im waiting for the missionaries to call me back buttttttt it looks like theyre not going to. ugh.

today was ok. not much to say