Anger

Man I have pissed off a huge number of people in the past day.
It's like a gift.
Great.

Being in love with a missionary.

Being in love with  a missionary is the weirdest thing I have ever experienced. Jordan and I were a COMPLETELY normal couple until August 15th, 2010 when everything changed. I had to say goodbye, for 2 years. 2 years ago I didnt even know what a Mormon was, and now I am one, I have a missionary, and our main goal is that temple. Anyways, before Jordan, I had never been  in love before and neither had he. So we were still getting used to being in love with someone, which is definitely a crazy thing. Then all of a sudden right in the middle of that, we had to learn how to be in love from 3,000 miles away with a crazy amount of rules in our way.  That has been a struggle even now almost 19 months later. Sometimes I wonder why we decided to put ourselves through this. Why didnt we do what everyone else did? Say goodbye and see where we are in 2 years when he returns. But I can always remember why. Because we arent everyone else. When you love someone, you dont let them go. Ever. Under any circumstance...especially because it is a once in a lifetime love. Now I have made plenty of mistakes and so has he, but hey were human right? I have upset his family many times and my dad is gonna have to dig deep to understand this whole thing. But hey, I dont even understand it lol and he isnt a member? So anyways what I am trying to say, is that this journey completely flipped my life upside down and to be honest, I cannot wait for it to be over. Last night I had the WORST dream ever, and let me tell you it isnt the first time I have had that dream.

I love my Elder Flores and I am so proud of him. 5 more lil months and we can start again :) Hopefully <3

BEST DAY EVER. PART 2.

Jordan called me.
For an hour and a half.
That is all.
No pictures.
Just pure joy.

Happy Anniversary!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY BOO! 2 YEARS AND STILL GOIN STRONG <3

Love.

There is something about love that always brings you back to that person.

For me, that person is Jordan Flores. He is the most amazing man in my life. Ever since that day in January 2010 when I was blessed to meet him, my life has changed, for the better. Everything I do has hope and purpose and meaning. He gave me my fire back. He is one man who deserves the best of everything in the world, but he chose me. I am the luckiest girl ever. I don't know what I would do without him.

557 days ago I said goodbye to him. For 731 days.
Hardest day of my life, but also the best. The mission that he has been serving for our church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has been the biggest blessing in his life and mine ( and the lives of many, many others.) When he first left, I was in so much pain and feeling so selfish, that I managed to miss every miracle that was coming from him serving. As soon as I opened my eyes, I realized the eternal reason why he is serving. He has never made me a prouder girlfriend. Even though he left his family and I for 2 years, he is making it so that other families can be together forever, the greatest gift of them all.

173 days from now (give or take a few), we will be together again.
All of this pain, lonliness, sadness, happiness, craziness, and tears will all be over. I will never have to write another letter, yell at another postal worker, or wake up at 7am on Monday mornings to get my email. I cant WAIT for that. But would I change this journey? NO. Because it makes Jordan and I who we are.

I love you, Elder Flores!

Valentine's Day

So....once again it is Valentine's Day and once again I am alone. No big deal right? Wrong. I know it's just a stupid commercial holiday and you should show the person you love EVERYDAY that you love them, but there is just something about being alone on Valentine's Day that makes me extremely bitter and angry. I just want to feel the person with me again...when I see couples I want to punch them. Me? Jealous? Oh yeah. Most def. Do I care? Nope.

SO my Valentine's Day consisted of feeding the missionaries, working, going to a staff meeting, and having class from 7-10pm. I would have given anything in the world to ditch that class and go on a date.

Done.

Flores' Family Weekend!!!! :)

This past weekend I spent Fri-Sun with Jordan's family in Anaheim, California! I seriously had a blast. I dont know what I would do without them because they seriously have been the biggest blessing since he has been gone. When I talk to his mom, it's like I'm talking to my very best friend because she totally knows how I feel. And the rest of his family is so accepting...I don't know what I would do if I didnt have a good relationship with them. I love sleeping in his room because somehow I feel closer to him.

I love you, Elder Flores.