Monday, May 30, 2011

Beginning of Summer! / My DOM!

So these past few days, I have just been laying around my pool with my friends, going to movies, having girls nights, and doing a whole lot of nothing. Gotta love summer!

Nails #1 by Alex- pink with white dots


Nails #2 by Alex- white with crackle


New dress for church courtesy of mommy!!


My everyday!


Almost to 10 months!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

stolen survey

SECRET # 1
Who is your last inbox message from?:
my cousin Anthony


SECRET # 2
Where was your display picture taken?:
in my dorm room last year


SECRET # 3
Your relationship status?:
in a relationship.


SECRET # 4
Have you ever lost a close friend?:
Never in death, but through separation of time and distance yes.



SECRET # 5
Whats your mood right now?:
Apathetic. always lately.


SECRET # 6
Where do you wish you were right now?:
Virginia Beach, VA


SECRET # 7
Have a crazy side?:
most defff

SECRET # 8
Ever had a near death experience?:
No not really.


SECRET # 9
Something you do a lot?:
over analyze.


SECRET # 10
Do you hate anyone?
I could never hate anyone.


SECRET # 11
What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
well hes in Virginia... lol


SECRET # 12
When was the last time you cried?:
this morning.

SECRET # 13
Is there anyone you would do anything for?:
I would do anything for so many people.
I live to make others happy.



SECRET # 14
Who or what do you think about when you are falling asleep?
Everything over and over in my head.


SECRET # 15
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:
My fasha

SECRET # 16
What is your favorite song?:
hmmmm at the moment?? probablyyyyy ummm each day gets better <3

SECRET # 17
What are you doing right now?:
blogging clearly


SECRET # 18
Who do you trust most right now?
The Lord and my Father in Heaven.


SECRET # 19
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?:
Stole it from Jordan's room lol


SECRET # 20
do you love someone?:
yes!


SECRET # 21
Last thing you purchased?:
ummm ooh a dress this morning


SECRET # 22
Describe your life in one word:
hard.

SECRET # 23
Who are you thinking of right now?
my baby


SECRET # 24
Where did you last take a road trip to?:
uhhhh idk


SECRET # 25
What are you listening to?:
something corporate


SECRET # 26
describe the person you like in one word :
amazing.

SECRET # 27
Who was the last person who yelled at you? :
no one!


SECRET # 28
Do you act differently around the person you like?
Actually no. He lets me be me!!



SECRET # 29
What is your natural hair color?
blonde...dirty blonde


SECRET # 30
Who was the last person to make you laugh?:
my mom


SECRET # 31
Who was the last person to make you sad?:
my stupid sister


SECRET # 32
Who do you miss?:
Jordan, Tela, Syd


SECRET # 34
Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
hahahaha i dont know i dont think so


SECRET # 35
Been out of the country?:
does Mexico count?!?


SECRET # 36
Held hands with the opposite sex within 6 days?:
nope

SECRET # 37
If you had to move anywhere else in the world where would you move?:
nowhere i love CA


SECRET # 38
Do little things mean a lot to you?:
They mean so much to me it's amazing!



SECRET # 39
Are you happy with life right now?:
no and its my fault! dang it


SECRET # 40
Are you currently jealous?:
no


SECRET # 41
What jewelry are you currently wearing?:
4 earrings


SECRET # 42
What were you doing last night?:
shopping


SECRET # 44
Have you ever broken someone's heart?:
Yeah...


SECRET # 45
Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?:
Yeah, but I can't do anything about it.



SECRET # 48
Whats your name again?:
Katy


SECRET # 49
What were you doing last Wednesday night?:
Watching Pirates of the Carribean!


SECRET # 50
Excited for school?:
yes.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Waiting for Elder Flores

MAN lately times have been really hard. I love that man more than life, but somewhere in the back of my mind I just can barely get through the day without him anymore! Its like, Im having to grow up without him and do things alone. I see these couples everywhere enjoying their early 20s, going on dates, holding hand etc and I want to be able to do that more than anything. Of course I knew what I was getting myself into, but I literally have been feeling sick without him. Today someone told me that anything is possible when you have a strong foundation surrounding you, but the problem is that he WAS my foundation, so what do I have now? Im not sure. Im miserable right now without him, but I know I will be miserable if we break up. I want nothing more than for him to be happy, healthy, and to be a hard-working and dedicated missionary. I feel like right now he is all of those things, but Im just over here as an unhappy, miserable girlfriend. And you know the sad thing? I am letting myself be like that. Never in my life have I ever acted so pathetically. If any of my close friend or family knew I felt this way, they would laugh at me because this is not how I should be acting, and I agree. I love him SO much, and I miss him SO much and I know 100% he is the one for me, so why is this so hard right now? Somethings gotta change or i dont know what is going to happen. And by something, I mean get him back. Which isnt going to happen. See the dilemma??

Monday, May 23, 2011

Disconnected.

I feel disconnected from my life. I just dont wanna do it anymore. I'm done.

Friday, May 20, 2011

"Find Joy in the Journey." :) -President Monson

So this week I have endured SO many things. My grandpa passed away, I took 3 finals on the same day, and I moved home from college. BUT! as I checked my mailbox today for the last time this school year, I got a package from my baby with a letter, memory card, and tape recorder! Can you say YES! That man is Heaven sent :) Definately made my week a bit better. I love you Elder Flores! 14.92 months and Im ALL yours!


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

I love you, Grandpa.

God Be With you Till we Meet Again.
I love you grandpa.
And I will do your temple work.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

My Missionary's Dad's Baptism :)

Today Joe got baptized! it was one of the most amazing things I have ever witnessed! Although Jordan wasnt here to perform the ordinance, it was still such a special day. When he was getting baptized, I couldnt help but think of the day I got baptized, one year and one week ago by my amazing missionary :) I am so happy for the Flores Family...especially for Jordans mom Tifa, because in one year they can go to the temple together. oh, how I love the gospel of Jesus Christ!! :)

Friday, May 13, 2011

Feeling Extremely Down...

These past few days I have been extremely down, for a bunch of different reasons. The first reason I would guess is finals. I am not one to stress out or be worried, I just dont like them. The second reason is the MG website. I had my feelings hurt on there these past three days like craaazy. There are a few girls who seem to take joy out of hurting other ones, and I just feel like they are ruining the website. Also, the fact that Jordan has 15 more months is KILLING ME. I never thought I could be this weak! I have always been the strong one in my family, but I just cant seem to handle this anymore. The mother's day convo was great, but now im trying to recover haha. Good thing I love the fact that he is serving our Lord, or else this would be unbearable. I know I will probably snap out of this soon...everyone pray I do!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

MOTHERS DAY/PHONE CALL!!

Today was sooooo amazing. I went over to my missionaries house, and spent time there until Sunday. My baby called at 7:15am and talked to us for about an hour! He first talked to his mom and dad for about 15 minutes, and then he asked his dad, "pa, is katy there??" and they said "yes!!" and gave me the phone. Up until this point, I hadnt cried (which was amazing compared to my crying at the christmad phone call) so i took the phone into his room, and said "hello?" and he said "HEY BABY!!" and that was it. I started BAWLING. I love that man so much. I had soooo much to talk to him about, but then it all flew out the window and nothing was coming out...awesome haha. But we talked about his mission, school, how much we love eachother, how good his family has been to me etc. Best 15ish minutes of my LIFE. Seriously its like nothing has changed. He is still the most amazing man in my life, and I am so incredibly proud of him for the work he is doing. So then i got the phone back for another minute before he hung up and we said our I love you's. I am so glad i wasnt the last one to have to tell him the final goodbye. That would have torn me apart. But anyways, now we begin the countdown till the christmas call!! haah. Right after I talked to him, I called my mom to tell her Happy Mothers Day, but as soon as she said hello, i started bawling and she knew exactly why haha. She is the best mom in the whole wide world! And so is my second mom (My missionaries mom!!) I look up to her and what she has done, and she is just incredible!

Happy mothers day to all the beautiful mothers out there!!! <3 <3 <3 Especially Elaina & Tifa!!! :)

Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Letter Gods Have Blessed Me.

The thing that I needed to most today was a letter. And i got one :) 6 wonderful pages of letter-ness. He is SO amazing, and I am so lucky to have such a loving, caring, and kind Priesthood Holder. He always reminds me why I love him and why were going to get married in the San Diego Temple without a doubt!!
I LOVE YOU ELDER FLORES!

On another note, I am cleaning out my dorm room because tomorrow I am moving half of my junk home. I took down the 1964199460814 picutres of Jordan and I and his mission off of my walls and it looks so weird. Also, I took all of the clothes out of my closet...oh. my. gosh. SO MUCH! lol. But even though today started off totally cruddy, it turned around! And to top it off, Im going to my missionaries house tomorrow to stay till sunday! I love his family and I love sleeping in his bed! It makes me feel better!! I cant wait for Mothers Day phone call!! 2 more days aaaaaahhH!!

worst dream a missionary girlfriend could ever have.....

well i think my title says it all but here it goes.

so i had this dream last night where Jordan came home. for some reason he lived in the apartment across the hall from me. he came to visit me, and i was so excited. then all of a sudden he said he had to go. i didnt understand. so i went over there and he said he didnt know if he could love me anymore and that he needed time alone. this was the worst thing ever. i was absolutely crushed, especially because we talk about what it will be like when he is home EVERY WEEK, and this is the complete opposite. this is the only morning EVER that i was happy when my alarm went off at 7am because it made the dream end.

i really need a letter today. PLEASEE LETTER GODS PLEASSEEE

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

ABCs of Yours Truly :)

Age: 20 years young.

Bed Size: Twin

Chore you hate: VACUMING!! HATE HATE HATEE IM SCARED OF IT.

Dogs: None!! I have 4 cats :)

Essential start of your day: Reaching over and checking my phone, even thought I KNOW none are from Jordan.

Favorite Color: Yellow

Gold or silver: Silver

Height: 5'3.5"

Instruments I play (or have played): None :(

Job Title
: Full time student :)

Kids: I have none. But i want 6!

Live: In San Diego, California and school in Los Angeles!

Mom's Name: Elaina

Nickname(s): Killowatts Kit Kat

Overnight hospital stays: None that i know of!

Pet Peeve: People brushing their teeth and spraying it on the mirror.

Quote from a movie: " I can speak whale!"

Right or left handed: Right

Siblings: one twin sister, Kelsey.

Time you wake up: 7:15am.

Unicycle rider: Hahahahaha i would die.

Vegetables you dislike: carrots.

What makes you run late: My hair

X-rays you've had done: teeth, hand, finger, neck, back.

Yummy food you make: im not a chef

Zoo animal: Duck or meerkat!! hahah

Monday, May 2, 2011

Happy 14 Months Baby!!

Jordan and I have been together for 14 months today! man i love that man so much! he has 472 days left, so that means i am only to the year mark!! woohoo!!


can u say amazing?:  "you're soooo amazingly beautiful babe!!! do u know that?  i freakin love you, and am soooo attracted to you its unreal!!!  i love you baby and you look gorgeous in ur pics, and im soooo happy that things have been getting easier for you my lover!  hahaha i def agree, were pretty much engaged huh? <3  im still gonna def do the traditional way if you know what i mean ;) , but either way ur my fiancee/eternal comp so thats how i feel and thats all that matters <3"



I LOVE YOU Jordan Victor Vaisaulu Flores!!!