Tuesday, August 31, 2010


i love today. love love love....

Went to class from 1230-145 then home and i got my email!!!! :)

as much as sometimes one email a week doesnt seem like enough, i will have to make due. my email this week made me so happy and i cannt wait for my baby to get out there and share the gospel! i am so proud of him!!

i will get a handwritten letter from him this week so i cannot wait for that either. i never knew how important snail mail was until this has happened to me.  i cant believe he has already been gone for over 2 weeks. it seems like so long but also seems not that long. idk haha. i love you <3


Monday, August 30, 2010

Sunday, August 29, 2010

The Sabbath day

Well Sundays are always a good day for me. Why? Because it is one week close to being with the love of my life again.

So my friend Tela has been taking me to church and she is so amazing!! I want to be like her someday she is so organized and spiritual and she is a role model for me! Church was good although i was starving haha.

I love you Jordan Victor.


Saturday, August 28, 2010

The wind picked up, the fire spread.

You're everywhere I look. and in my dreams and daydreams. and i miss you. i feel no ambition for life anymore. not in a bad way, just dont wanna go out dont wanna experience anything without you.  this is my freedom. as i hide behind a laptop keyboard, your always on my mind.  I think of what your doing periodically through the day as i see your picture or come across an old text message. i miss you.

when im down i think about the promises you made me because you really have no idea how much they mean to me.  they are all i have left to hang onto.  sometimes when i find myself trying to find someone to blame this on, it often is easy to point the finger towards the church.  of course i know it is not the churches fault, nor anyones fault.  it is an amazing selfless thing your doing to save the futures of others. and as much as i am so excited your doing this, it kills me.  i am so thankful to missionaries for what they have done for me because they essentially gave me eternal life, and i cannot wait to start hearing the stories of the people ur going to help.  but then again i am human and these feeling kick in every so often.  like why cant u be here with me? why cant u call or text me? why cant i hear from you every day? but basically i can go in circles with these questions and the answer will always be because thats the way it is.

I love you.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Time slowly crawls by...

Today and tomorrow seem ridiculously slow. And i mean it.  Last semester these days would have been filled with the best and most fun adventures any 2 people could have in LA or SD.  And that isnt an overstatement.  But as I lay in my bed at 1:13pm, it's a very sobering reality to remember why i am here and why i am doing this.  Although its very hard, and very sad, I am so proud of my love, and I hope that he is having an amazing and spiritual time.  I guess it doesnt help that Wednesday I hurt my neck really bad in a car accident and it hurts to turn it the slightest bit.  Great, thats exactly what i needed.

But as i sit here and complain to no one, I also remember that God has blessed me with so many things that mean so much moree to me that anything else.  I cant ever forget that!! I think i will go read some scriptures.


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Oh, how time is the enemy.

My heart suddenly left my body on August 15th, 2010.  Not that I had much of one to start with.  As time goes on, I feel less and less connected to anything emotional or worth living for.  But i guess at this point it's beside the point.


That song explains my existence.  Along with meadows, lakes, the sun, and Virginia.  Oh yeah. Virginia is where my heart, soul, and energy is until August 18th, 2012.  Wish me luck.

Im back in Northridge, love it or hate it.  School is ok.  Church is great.  Classes are okay.  Everything these days seems to come in mediocrity. 

Until then, Katy