Pure Pain

You know, sometimes people say pain is weakness leaving the body. Bullshit.

Pain is pain. It hurts like a ton of bricks, especially when you do it to someone you seriously love so much and would move mountains for. You know those split seconds when you do/say something terribly horribly wrong? yeah, well I know that feeling.

The absolute worst feeling in the world is hurting someone you love. I did this. And I am so sorry for it. So I deserve to lose you, I just wasn't quite ready for that yet.

I miss you a lot...

Hm.

Yeah I don't know.
It's so confusing.

Lost Without You

Sometimes I wonder what is going on inside my mind. I'm really not sure 99% of the time. But today, I have one word to describe how I feel. Lost. When you lose your rock, time stands still and you leave. I'm gone. I want to be gone. Sometimes I wish I could go to sleep and never wake back up. Everyone just tells me, "Katy, this is life, deal with it." Well in that case, forget life, cuz it sucks without you.

Hurting the ones I love most.

I am seriously on a roll! Newest victim: my dad. I hurt the hell out of him and I seriously feel so bad. Anyone who knows me knows that I am the closest to him out of anyone in my family.

:'(

we love each other too much

we didnt even make it 24 hours alone.

i am so confused.

but jordan and i can never be apart.

The End.

Jordan and I have been having problems for a while and today, we ended us for good. Im sad, but I know it is for the best. The kid changed my life. But all good things come to an end. I wish him the best, and he will always be one of my best friends. Life goes on.

"Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise"

Spring Break 2012

WAS HORRIBLE! I was so sick for 3/4 of it!! :( Worst break ever! But I felt better the last 2 ish days  I was home so i tried to make the most of it :) 

Alex and I had a girls day :)

My sister sister and I had lunch and it was really fun :)


Now Im in Sherman Oaks, and Ill be back at school tomorrow :/