we love each other too much

we didnt even make it 24 hours alone.

i am so confused.

but jordan and i can never be apart.

The End.

Jordan and I have been having problems for a while and today, we ended us for good. Im sad, but I know it is for the best. The kid changed my life. But all good things come to an end. I wish him the best, and he will always be one of my best friends. Life goes on.

"Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise"

Spring Break 2012

WAS HORRIBLE! I was so sick for 3/4 of it!! :( Worst break ever! But I felt better the last 2 ish days  I was home so i tried to make the most of it :) 

Alex and I had a girls day :)

My sister sister and I had lunch and it was really fun :)


Now Im in Sherman Oaks, and Ill be back at school tomorrow :/

Anger

Man I have pissed off a huge number of people in the past day.
It's like a gift.
Great.

Being in love with a missionary.

Being in love with  a missionary is the weirdest thing I have ever experienced. Jordan and I were a COMPLETELY normal couple until August 15th, 2010 when everything changed. I had to say goodbye, for 2 years. 2 years ago I didnt even know what a Mormon was, and now I am one, I have a missionary, and our main goal is that temple. Anyways, before Jordan, I had never been  in love before and neither had he. So we were still getting used to being in love with someone, which is definitely a crazy thing. Then all of a sudden right in the middle of that, we had to learn how to be in love from 3,000 miles away with a crazy amount of rules in our way.  That has been a struggle even now almost 19 months later. Sometimes I wonder why we decided to put ourselves through this. Why didnt we do what everyone else did? Say goodbye and see where we are in 2 years when he returns. But I can always remember why. Because we arent everyone else. When you love someone, you dont let them go. Ever. Under any circumstance...especially because it is a once in a lifetime love. Now I have made plenty of mistakes and so has he, but hey were human right? I have upset his family many times and my dad is gonna have to dig deep to understand this whole thing. But hey, I dont even understand it lol and he isnt a member? So anyways what I am trying to say, is that this journey completely flipped my life upside down and to be honest, I cannot wait for it to be over. Last night I had the WORST dream ever, and let me tell you it isnt the first time I have had that dream.

I love my Elder Flores and I am so proud of him. 5 more lil months and we can start again :) Hopefully <3

BEST DAY EVER. PART 2.

Jordan called me.
For an hour and a half.
That is all.
No pictures.
Just pure joy.

Happy Anniversary!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY BOO! 2 YEARS AND STILL GOIN STRONG <3